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Long time no post. Sorry to the two of you who actually check back to see if I've posted.

This has been one long semester..filled with many trials. Three weeks left of school- yay!! God has been faithful yet again to get me through yet another stressful semester.

I was reading today on Carolyn Mahaney's girl talk blog and her post from today really kinda struck me and hit home in my life. Most of you don't know but this semester I had a boyfriend, AJ, who broke up with me. It's been almost 3 months since we broke up and I've been wondering why it wasn't as easy to get over this time as it was when things ended with Derek. I can honestly say the reason is because this time I didn't seek God. I knew what I needed to do, but I never took the time to do it. Looking back I can truly say that I wasn't ready Spiritually for a relationship. I need to really focus on my relationship with God and until I get that straight and really, truly, honestly, make Him number one in my life.. I won't be ready.
I've also realized that I need more people in my life who will speak truth into it. Yes, it's fun to have friendships that are fun and we can talk about anything- but I want relationships that will help build me up in Christ too...and I have very few. I miss being around Godly girls all the time- I truly truly miss CrossWay. It really hit me this past weekend when I was home and when I was at Church- I miss that fellowship.

Anyways here is Carolyn's post from the blog, maybe it'll speak to you too.
Enjoy.

I’ve been thinking a lot about worldliness lately. Maybe that’s because my husband is presently immersed in editing and contributing two chapters to a book on this topic (which of course I get to read while it’s being written). Or possibly it’s because Chad is writing a paper on this subject for his Bible class at school (which of course I get to help with).

All this thinking about worldliness has led to a fresh realization: I don’t think often enough about worldliness.

I assume worldliness doesn’t apply to me. I take for granted that I’m not lured by things of the world. I’m above that temptation.

Wrong!

I may not be tempted to dress immodestly or to watch ungodly movies, but I am tempted by other things that spoil my hunger for God.

Take the Christmas season, for instance. Every holiday I can be drawn to all things Christmassy--the shopping, buying gifts, wrapping presents, decorating the tree, baking holiday treats, attending parties and celebrations. Of course these things are not wrong in and of themselves. They can be delightful gifts from God. But I can be tempted to desire them more than the most important thing--regardless of the season: sitting at the Lord’s feet (Luke 10:38-41). And then I wonder why my heart feels so dull come December 26th.

John Piper provides the explanation when he says:

"If you don’t feel strong desires for the manifestation for the glory of God, it is not because you have drunk deeply and are satisfied. It is because you have nibbled so long at the table of the world. Your soul is stuffed with small things, and there is no room for the great."

This holiday I don’t want my soul stuffed only with decorations, shopping, and Christmas cookies. I want to make every effort to drink deeply of God’s presence so my soul will be truly satisfied.